If you caught up with me last week, you know I went on a very hilly group bike ride last weekend. You also know my main reason for choosing that challenge is the very hilly Pennsylvania Dutch Farm To Fork Fondo we will be doing at the end of July. Although I made it up all the hills last year, it was HARD, and there were a few close calls. I want to feel stronger this year, and I know the only way those climbs will be easier is if I do some hard rides now.
Well, the ride I did last weekend was plenty hard. And even though I made it through the ride, and there was only one hill I couldn’t handle–or didn’t handle correctly–instead of looking forward to “next time” with a bit more confidence, I am even more afraid because I know exactly what I’ll be in for.
When I told my husband I already was psyching myself out over maybe going again next weekend, he said:
You don’t have to do it.
That stopped me in my tracks–luckily I was sitting at my new kitchen counter and not clipped in! 🙂
I am used to my friends encouraging me to go for it, telling me I can do it, reminding me I am strong.
His remark was so different from what I was expecting, I felt deflated.
At first I was annoyed at him for not supporting me, but then I realized he was right.
I don’t have to do that hard, hilly bike ride again. I don’t have to face hills that put knots in my stomach just thinking about them. Heck, I don’t even have to go to Lancaster in July.
But since I do want to ride in the Farm To Fork Fondo again, and since I have friends who are becoming regulars at that hilly group ride, I want to want to do that ride again too.
I still don’t know if my husband’s words were more discouraging or empowering, but they made me admit that if I do show up to Conte’s Bike Shop next weekend, it will be because I am choosing the challenge–and maybe because Deborah might be there too. 🙂
When I went to Revolve this week, I talked to Aimee about my hill hysteria, and how I can get more out of indoor cycling. While I ride with heavy resistance, my cadence is not very fast. That’s fine inside where my bike can’t fall over, but I need to maintain momentum to get up those hills outside. I’m going to put more effort into my cadence at Revolve, and hope that pays off in Pennsylvania too.
I’m linking up with &Holly and Tricia for the Weekly Wrap and joining Courtney‘s Training Recap link up.
Tuesday: Strength Training
Wednesday: Easy Run
Thursday: Indoor Cycling
Friday: Core Power Yoga
Saturday: 9 mile run + 11 mile bike ride
Do you think it’s empowering to remember you are choosing to challenge yourself?