It’s been a few weeks since I wrote an update on my Under Armour What’s Beautiful goals. (I am working with Under Armour and Fitfluential to promote the Under Armour What’s Beautiful campaign to redefine the female athlete by setting epic goals and pushing past where we’ve ever been and where we thought we could go. If you haven’t visited the Under Armour What’s Beautiful site, you are missing out on some awesome inspiration and serious motivation!)
While my main goal is to
Run faster, get stronger, and remember to breathe.
a secondary goal has emerged: learning to use clip-in shoes on my bike.
The first day I tried clip-in shoes, I scraped up my knee.
The second try–my first ride on the bike path–went much better.
20 miles! No blood!
But, the third time was not the charm.
Luckily it didn’t hurt when I ran.
The next weekend, as we were getting ready to head to the bike path again,
I had a knot in my stomach.
I wanted to tag a picture of me on my bike with #fearless,
but I knew that wasn’t true.
I was scared.
I pushed through those fears for 23 miles with only one minor fall,
but that added a new bruise to the same knee and a big bruise to my other thigh
(from my brakes? my pedal?).
This weekend, I was looking for an excuse not to ride.
Would it rain?
Should I risk another bruise when my old bruises haven’t quite healed yet?
What if I really hurt myself this time?
But I knew I had to get back on my bike,
before my fear took root,
before I decided that I am just too uncoordinated,
before I give up.
I remembered my favorite Under Amour What’s Beautiful poster
and decided to get out of my own way.
I am happy to report that my 9 mile ride was uneventful. I rode cautiously, and unclipped at the first sign of danger ahead–a boy on his tricycle on the wrong side of the path, a man walking four dogs, busy intersections.
I’m still not confident of my ability to clip-out on short notice, but I know I need to keep riding–and practicing–to develop that skill. Yet, I find myself wondering if I am being badass or dumbass when I climb on my bike and hear that “click” as my shoes lock into place.
Have you ever given up on a goal?