Three years ago today, my son got his driver’s license.
Three years ago today, I went to The Healthy Back Store to order a fancy desk chair.
Three years ago today, I got a phone call while I was confirming my order.
Three years ago today, I ran out of the store and met my Dad’s wife at the hospital.
Three years ago today, I called my husband from the hospital, and told him there was no need to hurry.
Three years ago today, I called my secretary, told her I wouldn’t be in for the rest of the week, and asked her to cancel my afternoon manicure appointment. (I rarely ask her to handle personal tasks, but I couldn’t have made that call and listened to the lecture about the 24-hour cancellation policy.)
Three years ago today, I called my church and was relieved that my priest was able to come to the hospital and sit with us.
I can’t remember the rest of the day. Coming home. Seeing my son. Writing this post. Eating dinner. Going to bed.
But I do remember feeling loved and blessed that day, and I am still grateful that we had just spent time together celebrating my son’s birthday, so that my last memories of my Dad are being gathered as a family, talking and laughing.
Three years later, remembering Dad is easier. I usually can think about him–the things we did together, the “lessons” he taught me, his “words of wisdom,” his love for my children–without crying. But today when I think about him, I am mostly remembering his hugs, which always ended with an extra squeeze, to be sure I knew how much he loved me.
I guess I need his hug today.
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I know what you might feel like. I lost my dad 13 years ago. He was only 50. It gets easier with time, but I still miss him.
Tell me, how is the chair? I’ve been considering one like those for a while.
Thanks. Obviously sometimes it’s harder than others! I do like the chair but now I wish I’d held out for a standing desk — they weren’t quite as common three years ago.
Oh, I’m so sorry!! I can see that today you do need a hug and I hope you have plenty of people in your life today who can do just that and help make the day a little easier!!!
So sorry about your loss. I hope you get a great family hug today.
Sending a big, warm hug to you right now. Hold the memories of your dad close to your heart forever.
SO MUCH LOVE AND GREAT BIG HUGS.
xoxoxoxox
Sending love and prayers and huge hugs! <3
I hope that you got a hug, and that any and all virtual hugs you receive help you at least a little. I’m so sorry for your loss, but I’m glad that you can remember happy times.
What a beautiful post. I am so thankful you are able to remember your Dad in a positive way without as much hurt and feeling of loss as in years past. Time does help to heal intense pain. Always remember in a comforting way your DAD!
Big hugs from me too. Sorry I missed this yesterday. I love the way that you talk about his hugs, that’s a beautiful memory.
Thinking of you, and prayers for memories of your time with your dad that will continue to sustain you in the years to come.
Sending lots of love and hugs (a few days late). Anniversaries like this are always the hardest. xox